Alhamdulillah..ak msih dberi pluang utk hdup arini..hdupku jgak stil mcm bese..xd ap yg brubah...ak jugak stil mcm bese..snyum,,gelak,,gurau ngn kwn2..evrything going normal..but tu sume luaran jer..ati ak skit..skit sgt..cume ak xnk lyn...a xnk pk sume tu...ak nk ttop sume ksedihan ak..ak xnk org ingt ak ni lemah,,hipokritnyer ak..wlopon ak xsuke org yg hipokrit,,tp wt mse nih ak kne jdik hipokrit...ak kne smbunyikn ksedihan ak...ak xtaw knape ak ptot sdih..ak xtaw layak ker ak utk sdih..ak confuse..ak xtaw ap yg ak rse..ak terkilan...sgt terkilan..siyesly,,ak xpnah rse sume nih..ak taw,, ak kne kuatkn ati..xpyh pk tu sume..tp ak xsetabah tu..i really need my mum beside me..she will giv her shoulder for me to cry on..she will giv her hand to wipe my tears..i wish it only a nitemare..n when i wake up,,it`s gone!tp x..bape kli ak tdow then bgon blek pon,,ttp xbrubah..cuz it`s not a nitemare..n xkn jdik nitemare..suke or x,,ni knyataan yg ak kne hdapi..ak xtaw bile ak blh jdik kuat..ak nk hlgkn ksdihan nih..ak senyum,,ak gelak,,tp ak xleh nk tipu dri ak sdiri...myb org laen ingt ak hepy,,tp x..i`m smiling,,but it doesn`t mean i’m hepy..i`m laughing,,it juz bcuz i wanna throw away my sadness...i need time..i really hope dat evrything will be normal soon..insyaAllah..
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